I still feel the sting of the pain..

When you pull up to a red light and have some time to look around, what do you see? Something ever hit you funny? Strike a cord with you, how you're feeling or the song that's on..? 

I was at a light and just jamming out to Sara Evans - Stronger, singing away and took a look behind me..

No older than 19 years old in what I'm going to guess was Moms BMW was a guy and girl. They were talking she had puffed her cheeks and he touched her face. Cute, I started to get real sad. I was once young and naive to the feeling of what love could be or was.

Then they kissed, I felt really weird watching but as my song was playing along and the emotions of my own situation just made me cry. I cried. I fucking got all teary and really just had them fucking tears down my ugly assed face. Seriously?

Then he picked up a pen and put it between his nose and mouth and scrunched it up like a mustache and she laughed and I wanted to just drive into the car in front of me at that point and just end it right there. 

It was cute, I felt almost bad for them because the chances of them together in the future are slim and one of them is going to be in a similar painful situation that we all seem to find ourselves in at some point. And then some of us more than others.. or maybe I'm just real pessimistic. 

It hit me so hard. It made me so lonely and feel so awful, it's going to stay with me for a while, all during a powerful song and red light. The moment was short but it's one of those things that has an effect on you. 

Do you look around and see things that strike you differently?

Ironically the song I was listening to is like an empowering, triumphant song where you should get the feeling that you can really get past the one(s) that haven't worked out or hurt you. Now, the mixed emotions I felt just confused the hell out of me and now I'm just feeling like I'm I'm a bigger mess than I started. I wanted to call him right away, I wanted to hear his voice. I wanted to feel something more than what I was feeling. I can't call anyone, there's no voice to hear. I am truly alone in this life. 

Woke up late today, and I still feel the sting of the pain.
But I brushed my teeth anyway, got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face.
I got a little bit stronger.

Riding in the car to work, and I'm trying to ignore the hurt.
So I turned on the radio, Stupid song made me think of you,
I listened to it for minute, but then I changed it.
I'm getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger.

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same, 
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.

Doesn't happen over night, but you turn around and a months gone by, 
And you realize you haven't cried.
I'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer.
I'm busy getting stronger.

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same, 
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.

Getting along without you baby,
I'm better off without you baby,
How does it feel with out me baby?
I'm getting stronger without you baby.

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same, 
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.

I'm just a little bit stronger.
A little bit, a little bit, a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.